There are days when things just fall right into place.

I was reminded of all those that I have, all the opportunities that I will have access to, all the different things I can do in life. Although there's long way to becoming successful (i know), I really wanna thank mom for giving half the things I have, for teaching me to always strive for better, for paving ways for me but leaving me alone to experiment the forthcomings.

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The blue uncovered sky today reminded me that the 'world' is not only just what's beneath the cloud; there's an infinite number of possibilities out there that are not known to men. The thought of this brought smile to my face. For the first time in a long while, I have finally been able to taste the scent of ambition and satifisfaction. Then all of a sudden, the sun's beaming, people are smiling, and everything's happy. I was made the Queen of queens. I was happy and can't be any more content about life.

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I know! I am weird. I am full of surprises (even to myself)! It's like flipping a coin of rowdiness and tranquility, a coin of Good and Evil, a coin of felicity and misery, a coin of heaven and hell. "Hmm, I wonder which one will it be today?" My life always seems to be swinging and flinging between two unmistakably farthest points; appearing and vanishing across them. There are times when I know things can't be any better or worse, or that things can't mean any others but the present. I KNOW for a fact that nothing can take away my beliefs and emotions. Then BANG, like the motion pictures in the fast rolling films of a movie, that whirl away at the invisible speed,

It changed.

The good disappears in the face of the evil. The beautiful appears at the sight of fading hideousness. All of this happens despite of me, I am always there confused and excited. I never know that life can be filled with so many layers, that life can mean so many many things, and that life has so much depths and breadths to share with me. I am indeed grateful.

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'I was so determined that this song could mean nothing else but trees and shadows. But today, I saw a city of people traversing to the beat of the drums, laughing with the stories of the rhythms, promenading in the midst of green. Then I knew, that I have only discovered the door to life.

ah.

Having a handful of good friends is GRRRRReat.

just as simple as that.

Keeping ethics in mind well enough to practice it will be the goal now.
a classmate of mine is known to be a person of fun, socializing, and craziness sometimes. he kisses people when he's drunk, he buys eveybody in the whole entire program candies and notes, he says hi to everybody and knows everyone's name by heart. if this wasn't craziness, i don't know what he is.

but he's running for president the coming year.

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Don't know about you, but he wouldn't be the first person come to mind when i think about president. I mean he's fun to hang out w/ and all but when it comes to taking up responsibilities and putting efforts and time in disciplining the faculty and setting examples for his fellow students,.. well i 'll just say I can't open my eyes widely and say "I hav faith."

So of course, I am entitled to what I think. Doesn't matter how crappy and biased an opinion I have about somebody, I am entitled to it as long as I don't influence others by badmouthing around.

But that's the opposite thing I did today.. A girl I had a tremendous respect for was in front of me, "expressing" her opinion of this fun-loving guy and how he's not suitable for the position.. yeda yada yada. Before I could close my mouth, menancing words flew out of my mouth like captured insects being freed from captivity, I simply could no stop. YEs,I wasn't lying, I wasn't saying things I didn't believe. I was simply 'expressing' my opinion. But regret got hold of me and gave me the lecture of ethics all over again.

I was wrong.

I mean I hardly knew the guy. He could be the most hard working, dedicated person in the whole faculty and I wouldn't know it. He could be the most responsible person I will ever know in my whole entire life, but I couldn't know it. He could be the best model example I will have seen the rest of my program years and I don't know it. So after all these 'i don't knows', how could I have said something like that?

I felt I have wronged him. I have violated the code of ethics we learn in school. I have followed the evilness of my human nature and blurted out the prejudice I have against everybody. My comments, my judgements got hold of me and put the bitch in me on the pedestal, enounciating loud and clear, every discriminatory conceited words from my brain.

I am sorry. and I will never do it again. I promise.

Linda

linda = derivative ( wisdom x time ) + e ^ green + integral { f ( dance + grace + weirdness)}

where the integral { f ( dance + grace + weirdness ) } calculates how deep of a forest (analagous to the deep sea

a good friend of mine named me with a math equation. how cool is that?