I don't think i've felt this calm and steady for awhile now. I've gotta take this moment to savour it. Its' funny how I always end up here online on this board whenever anything happens. If nobody says, people must think that I am the little loner with the little blackboard and white letters. hehe...And the sad part is .. hmm .. I dont' even think I can deny that that's not true.
I remember teling a friend that he's like a deep sea and that I don't think i can ever understand him. He even stirred up a puzzled look when I said that. I guess... to me everybody's a deep sea, (including my own). And I am like a fisherman trying to discover what's treasured deep down the miraculous green. Sometimes I'd get really attached.. really really attached to something, feeling no.. KNOWING that I am onto something there. But really, 90% of the time just wound up being my a-little-too-sensitive heart and a nosy personality. I think it's about time that I know this about myself now. It's time that I learn it and stop myself before things get too far. Its' hard because this is just another addiction of mine that I need to quit.
Getting attached to something too strongly is never good. I should know this by now. Especially after living on your own for awhile now, it's important to stay sane when nobody's around. Its' important to live with yourself and still keep a regular life, a life that's not always filled with fantasies and nonsensical dreams. You need to wake up, I mean really wake up and smell the coffee. You need to start living a life that you've taken a step towards coming to TO. You need to learn how to live like a person with ambitions, with motivations, and goals, rather than in the beautiful fancies you'd probably write about. Right?
Let's start over. Let's pick up where you left off and start over. Take one step by step and slowly you'll get back on track. I know you will. And hopefully by then, we'll realize that the things we've done so far in this short past haven't been worthless and pointless. Because we didn't only walk in a circle, it's just been a complicated labyrinth we've almost made our way out.
Right?
I remember teling a friend that he's like a deep sea and that I don't think i can ever understand him. He even stirred up a puzzled look when I said that. I guess... to me everybody's a deep sea, (including my own). And I am like a fisherman trying to discover what's treasured deep down the miraculous green. Sometimes I'd get really attached.. really really attached to something, feeling no.. KNOWING that I am onto something there. But really, 90% of the time just wound up being my a-little-too-sensitive heart and a nosy personality. I think it's about time that I know this about myself now. It's time that I learn it and stop myself before things get too far. Its' hard because this is just another addiction of mine that I need to quit.
Getting attached to something too strongly is never good. I should know this by now. Especially after living on your own for awhile now, it's important to stay sane when nobody's around. Its' important to live with yourself and still keep a regular life, a life that's not always filled with fantasies and nonsensical dreams. You need to wake up, I mean really wake up and smell the coffee. You need to start living a life that you've taken a step towards coming to TO. You need to learn how to live like a person with ambitions, with motivations, and goals, rather than in the beautiful fancies you'd probably write about. Right?
Let's start over. Let's pick up where you left off and start over. Take one step by step and slowly you'll get back on track. I know you will. And hopefully by then, we'll realize that the things we've done so far in this short past haven't been worthless and pointless. Because we didn't only walk in a circle, it's just been a complicated labyrinth we've almost made our way out.
Right?
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